sa pagsulyap ko sa nakaraan

Mood: content
Music: Setwyn's Negative Things, Dreamsounds

hindi man ako naging perpekto, alam kong pinilit kong maging. kahit minsan. kahit sandali. kahit halos panakaw lamang. subalit hindi pala ganoon kadali. ginawa ko lahat ng aking makakaya. sa nakalipas na ilang buwan. pinilit kong itama ang aking mga pagkakamali. na kung tutuusin ang mga pagkakamaling iyon ay ako rin ang gumusto. ayoko ng ulitin pa ang mga iyon sa darating na taon. sa darating na taon, na alam kong puno ng paghihirap para sa akin. para sa aking damdamin at sa aking utak.

naging malungkot ako sa taong nagdaan. halos wala na itong itinirang kasiyahan para sa akin. lalo na sa aking puso. sa aking tarantadong puso. sa gago kong puso na umibig ng mga taong hindi naman karapat dapat ibigin. sa mga taong inibig ko ngunit hindi ako minahal. PUTANG-INA nila. bakit pa ako nabuhay sa isang ilusyon na sila ang aking makakapiling? sa isang ilusyon na ako lamang ang bumuo. lalo na sa isang tao na natutunan kong mahalin sa sandaling panahon. sa sandaling panahon na inakala kong minamahal niya rin pala ako. kung hindi sa kanya. kung hindi sa kanya. hindi ako magkakaganito. hindi ko mararanasan ang hindi pa dapat maranasan ng isang tulad ko. ng isang tangang tulad ko. subalit nangyari na ang nangyari. hindi na ito maaaring ibalik kahit anumang gawing pilit.

salamat at nariyan ang mga kaibigang tumulong sa sugatan kong puso. sa tuliro kong pag-iisip, sa mga oras na nag-iisa ako, sa mga oras na kailangan ko ng karamay. salamat sa inyo! kung hindi dahil sa iilang kaibigang yaon, baka matagal na akong bumitiw mula sa mahigpit na pagkakakapit sa aking paninindigan. salamat.

kung hindi nangyari ang taon na ito. hindi ko makikilala ang taong nagpapaligaya ng lubusan sa akin ngayon. sa isang tao na nagpapakita ng pagmamahal na hindi ko kailanman natagpuan kaninoman. maraming salamat sa iyo aking mahal. ikaw ang umahon sa akin sa nakakamatay na kumunoy ng kalungkutan. ikaw ang siyang naging tanglaw ko sa gabing madilim. mahal na mahal kita. hindi kita iiwan kailanman.

sa aking pamilya na kahit papaano ay tumulong ng lubusan upang matutunan ko ang kalakaran ng buhay. sila ang nagkaroon ng malaking ambag upang lumaki ang aking determinasyon upang maabot ko ang mga pangarap ko sa buhay. ang makapagtapos ngayong semestre. sana. sa susunod na taon. matutunan ng aking mga magulang na lalo pa akong mahalin. ng katulad ng pagmamahal nila sa aking kapatid.

kung naririto pa ako sa mundong ito.

ayoko ng isipin ang nakaraan. subalit ang mga karanasang iyon ang siyang unti-unting nagpatatag sa akin. sa gagong ako. upang maging sa mabuting ako.

kung matutuloy man iyon.

sa mga taong aking nakasalamuha. salamat sa maikling panahon na tayoy nagkasama. hindi ko kayo malilimutan.

at kung dumating man ang pagkakataon na lisanin ko ang mabangis na mundong ito.
dadalhin ko ang mga alaala ng nakaraan, maging sa kabilang buhay.

sa buhay na alam kong patuloy akong magiging malungkot.

A survey of graduates 2006: Are they staying or leaving?

Mood: disappointed
Music: 3rd Storee's I'm Sorry, Dreamsounds

Every year, more and more fresh Filipino college graduates face the reality of joblessness in the country. Many say that the big question now is not anymore whether they will find the job that suits their degree but if they can find any job at all.

An offshoot of this reality is another question that most of them now ask: “Am I staying or leaving?"

GMANews.TV asked this of several graduating students.

Most of the interviewees are just planning to stay here to gain work experience but they intend eventually to work in another country.

The Philippines has now become one of the major countries where Filipino nurses are sourced for countries like the US, United Kingdom and Saudi Arabia.

The continued failure of government to increase employment for Filipinos and the low salaries of Filipino workers make the young decide to find their luck in other countries.

But there are those who still hope they can get a good job in the country.

We are staying, but…

“After graduation I plan to apply for a job here. Maybe I’ll take the civil service examination, so I can work for government agencies. I am (not rejecting the) idea of working abroad."
April Faye Posadas; 20 years old; AB Asian Studies - UST

“I’m planning to have a vacation first right after graduation, maybe for about 2-3 months. I also plan to work in a call center just to have work experience. But I’ll try to look for a more suitable job for me."
Wea Aloba; 20; AB Asian Studies - UST

“I’m planning to take my master’s degree in nursing here in the Philippines."
Aaron Paul Odoño; 21; B.S. Nursing - Arellano University

“I will concentrate on my review for the coming board exam, and after passing the board, I plan to work here for experience before finally leaving the country."
Ronnesa Marie Ramos; 20; B.S. Nursing - Arellano University

“I will stay in the Philippines and look for a suitable job for me. But one of my options is to go abroad, if things are not doing great for me."
Lei; 20; A.B. Mass Communication - St. Scholastica’s College, Manila

“I will not leave the country right after graduation."
Arjay Panganiban; 22; BS Engineering - UST

“We will be better off abroad

“I am starting to fix my papers, (particularly) my US visa. I will leave the country as soon as I pass the local board exam."
Al-jaret Blas de Ungria; 23; B.S. Nursing - San Beda College, Manila

“I will work here for at least one year (to gain) experience. I plan to take NCLEX in Hong Kong and maybe find better work in the US. I will stay with my relatives there."
Maria Imee Geronimo; 25; B.S. Nursing - San Beda College, Manila

“Kung meron magandang opportunity dito para sa akin magstay ako, pero pag wala sa ibang bansa na lang siguro." (If there’s an opportunity here, I’ll stay; if none, I’ll try my luck abroad.)
Katrin Gay Manansala; 21; Computer Science - Centro Escolar University, Manila

“I am still undecided if I’m going to leave after graduation. But my dad is working abroad. I think I’ll take my vacation there first."
Leo Estacio; 21; BS Engineering – Far Eastern University

Source: GMA News

Gakuen Alice Episode 2 - Welcome to Alice Academy

Mood: excited
Music: Public Announcement's Lonely, Dreamsound 2

The “black cat” turns out to be a student, Natsume, whose Alice is that of fire. Narumi is well prepared for this, however, and stops Natsume from escaping before allowing Mikan into the Alice Academy as a trial student, believing she does possess an Alice after all. After Mikan has another, embarassing run-in with Natsume, she finally gets to meet up with Hotaru again - however, Mikan is far happier about this than Hotaru, whose frosty nature extends to leaving Mikan stranded when she clashes with Natsume once more in class.

My memory’s a bit foggy on this one I’m afraid, it’s been two weeks since I watched it after all. Anyway, Gakuen Alice has the distinction of being a comedy that makes me actually laugh, which is an excellent thing indeed, and Mikan’s terminal hyperactivity is hysterically funny at times, especially contrasted with Hotaru’s deadpan cynicism. I don’t really have much else constructive to add, unfortunately, but then again I don’t suppose I ever do…

Movie Review: Fahrenheit 9/11

Mood: cynical
Music: Bamboo's Much has Been Said, Light Peace Love

Fahrenheit 9/11


Directed by: Michael Moore
Release Date: 06/23/2004
Run time: 116 min


I would like to start by saying I thoroughly enjoyed the movie. Fahrenheit 9/11 delves into many subjects that have been covered in the media throughout the last four years under George W. Bush. It deals with issues like September 11th, the "war" in Iraq, and the Patriot Act. Michael Moore is more well known for his documentaries, but whether Fahrenheit 9/11 is a "true documentary" is debatable. It has only been deemed a documentary by the people who put movies in genres, and I assume they have some sort of basis for putting it there, however Fahrenheit 9/11 struck me as more of a movie than a documentary.


While some of the images in the movie are quite graphic (mostly involving the "war" in Iraq), they are used to illustrate a point. Michael Moore chooses his pictures and clips wisely. The movie flows nicely and always leaves you wondering what he will look into next.

While I didn't support the "war" in Iraq, or the "war" on terror, I did try to view the movie with a skeptical eye. I wanted to try and find holes in Mr. Moore's logic to console myself about the current state of the United States. Unfortunately, Moore made the task more difficult than I had originally planned. There are a handful added tid-bits throughout the movie that lead me to believe that the Bush Administrations views this film (or Michael Moore) as a threat. At one point during the movie, Moore is across the street from the Saudi Embassy while talking with Mr. Unger he is stopped and questioned by a Secret Service member. Moore asked the Secret Service member if it is a normal procedure for the Secret Service to guard the Saudi Embassy, and the officer replied, "no".

I highly suggest seeing Fahrenheit 9/11. If you are Anti-Bush, go see it to further back your reasons. If you are pro-Bush I strongly suggest you see it, if only to test your reasons to support him. I give the movie a 9/10 rating.


I went to this movie expecting 3 things: Bush bashing, Michael Moore's crazy antics, and a strong left wing bias. I did not leave disappointed. In Michael Moore's latest escapade, he goes after George W. Bush and his war in Iraq. From the title, it would be easy to assume that the movie would be about the events that happened on September 11th, 2001; however that is only a small part of the film. Most of the movie consisted of Moore speaking out against Bush and his war in Iraq as well as many of his business relations. Moore makes many insinuations about Bush's relation to the disaster of September 11th, but as usual he never says outright what he gets everybody to believe; Bush and his buddies profited off September 11th.

As usual, Moore uses sneaky and usually very misleading editing, to strengthen his point. This movie, unlike his other movies, gets very emotional at some points by utilizing some very disturbing videos to stir the concerns of viewers. Despite the serious nature of the movie, Moore trivializes Bush and Republicans in general by usually playing circus or upbeat wacky music while keeping the more serious moments without any sort of distracting background music.

It is obvious that Moore is very anti-right wing, although you might be able to assume that that would make him very leftist, it doesn't show in the movie. Fahrenheit 9/11 shows a lot of Bush bashing and right wing bashing in general. This is what concerned me the most, as he would use various editing techniques to further bash the right wing usually unfairly.

Unlike Moore's other films, this film, seemed not to be an informative documentary, but rather a film for entertainment and for him to voice his opinion on the current situation with our country and of Iraq.

Aside from Moore's very anti-right wing bias, I enjoy Moore's in-your-face style of cinemetography. It lets his viewers see what people are like when they don't have time to think of a cover story. I give this movie a 1/10 as a documentary, but as a film a 5/10. There were many times thoughout the movie where I was getting bored due to his repetitive nature. The discrepency between my film rating and documentary rating comes from Moore's past credibility, mainly from Bowling for Columbine where many accusations were made that all of the facts asserted in the movie were unsubstantiated. To this day, Moore has not been able to substantiate those facts. That makes me wonder where he is getting his facts for Fahrenheit 9/11.

There is profane language and some rather disturbing video in this movie. I would advise that children not see this and stick by the R rating.

sad

Mood: sad
Music: John Legend's Ordinary People, Dreamsounds 3

sad
adj sadder, saddest


1. Feeling unhappy or sorrowful.

Thesaurus: downcast, dismal, gloomy, desolate, melancholy, unhappy, dispirited, dejected, troubled, morose, depressed, despondent, wistful, crestfallen, pessimistic, down in the mouth, down in the dumps, blue (slang); Antonym: happy, cheerful.

2. Causing unhappiness.

Example: sad news

3. Expressing or suggesting unhappiness.

Example: sad music

Thesaurus: mournful, pitiful, sorrowful, moving, touching, heart-rending, pathetic; lugubrious, tear-jerking (slang); joyless, dreary, dark, funereal; Antonym: heartening, comforting, pleasant.

4. Very bad; deplorable.

Example: a sad state

Movie Review: A Moment To Remember

Mood: inspired
Music: Jaze' Fly Away, Dreamsounds 2

A Moment To Remember

Year: 2004
Director: John H. Lee
Cast: Jung Woo-Sung, Son Ye-Jin, Baek Jong-Hak


The Skinny:
Loaded melodrama is glossy, yet well-told and engaging. However, after about ninety minutes the inconsistencies, implausibilities, and saccharine conceits start piling up. This film does prove to be memorable, but your reasons—and your mileage—could vary.

Review:
There needs to be a special section of your video store for the Asian terminal illness tearjerker. In the nineties, Hong Kong owned all with its variety of due-to-die protagonists, but now Korea is the go-to territory for movies about people with debilitating health problems. Leukemia, brain cancer, and other assorted maladies have wreaked havoc on the region, but A Moment to Remember trumps them all. In this recent melodrama, heroine Kim Soo-Jin (impossibly pretty Son Ye-Jin) contracts—are you ready for this—Alzheimer's Disease! Yes, a disease usually reserved for the ailing elderly has now been bestowed upon a twenty-seven year-old girl, who's not only beautiful but also recently married. Her husband, Choi Chol-Soo (Jung Woo-Sung), is an impossibly tough man-among-men, who now must deal with the heartrending plight of his honey's health going to Hell. Get your handkerchiefs, or industrial strength paper towels, ready.


Kim Soo-Jin and Choi Chol-Soo meet in glorious cinema style. She's just been stood up by her married boyfriend, while he's a manly mofo who bumps into her at the Family Mart. Immediate sparks are struck, but a flame doesn't build until she finds out that the dude is a foreman for her father's construction business. Chol-Soo is temperamental and oh-so-manly. He's rude and brusque, but usually with a sense of righteousness that's worthy of Chow Yun-Fat. His brief brushes with the adorably feminine Kim Soo-Jin are sure to get females swooning, but they should go crazy when he decks a motorcycle-riding mugger with the door of his jeep. The man meets metal incident totals Chol-Soo's windshield, but he valiantly drives Soo-Jin home while wearing safety goggles to keep out the wind. To prevent wind burn on Soo-Jin's delicate features, he gives her a welding mask, which she daintily wears. Wow, it's romantic, funny, and blithely ridiculous all at once! Somebody call the loaded romantic cinema police!


To be fair, A Moment to Remember is engaging enough for what it is. The courtship of the two photogenic stars is straight out of a screenwriting handbook, and the characters are both cinema-worthy and incredibly contrived. Still, they chose the right chapters of the screenwriting guide to crib from, and the stars make their characters exceptionally engaging. Son Ye-Jin is a remarkably facile young actress, who gives felt emotion to her character's varying emotional states, and can even sell a line like, "There's an eraser in my head," which she utters upon the revelation of her fading memory. Jung Woo-Sung may look like a hunky Asian version of Peter Brady, but he's a likable manly lunk whose biggest detriment is that he comes from fantasyland. Ladies, get this straight: guys like Choi Chol-Soo DO NOT exist in real life. You'd have a better chance of finding Bigfoot than a sensitive, loving, and yet utterly righteous dude like Choi Chol-Soo. Give Jung Woo-Sung credit; he sells the character, and manages to carry A Moment to Remember's maudlin extremes. If this is a good movie, then the stars are half of it.

There's more, though. True to current Korean filmmaking, A Moment to Remember is glossy and well-told. And even though a twenty-seven year-old contracting Alzheimer's Disease is incredibly unlikely, it is possible. The actual frequency of that happening is right up there with the likelihood of a fair Presidential election, but it's not out of the realm of metaphysical possibility. The knowledge that it's going to happen makes the characters' lives especially engaging. The filmmakers milk the atmosphere and bittersweet anticipation for all its worth; director John H. Lee manages to affect with slow, thoughtful storytelling and an appreciable dependence on his stars. The two meet and encounter the slings and arrows of cinema romance (Soo-Jin's dad disapproves! Chol-Soo's mom abandoned him! The crying has flooded the theater!), but sooner or later, a three-ton tearjerker freight train will smack this perfect couple with all the hackneyed screenwriting strength it can muster. Little hints are dropped from minute one. Dad says to Soo-Jin, "Being able to forget easily is a gift," and Soo-Jin keeps forgetting little things with oh-so-cute facial expressions. Too bad it's not just her character's fussy cuteness that causes her to forget her keys. Nope, she contracts Alzheimer's Disease. Then...IT ALL GOES TO HELL!

Unfortunately, that statement applies not only to the sad realization of her fate. The moments leading to, and shortly after the revelation hits make for some compelling, if predictably loaded cinematic excess. After that, it moves from cinematic excess to just plain excessive. A pivotal scene occurs where Chol-Soo loses his innate decency and turns on the hot-blooded man meter, leading to a bloody confrontation that's laughably contrived. Even more contrived is the bittersweet ending, which is saccharine and over-the-top manipulative. It almost seems as if the filmmakers had no idea how to end the film, and tried to create hope where there essentially was none. Their efforts are appreciated, but the film never really becomes about anything more than its superficial sadness. Real life or real emotions never seep to the surface, so all we have left is something that appears beautiful because that's what the filmmakers wanted. What is A Moment to Remember really about? Forgiveness? Family? The realization of what loving a person really means? Or is it simply about jerking the audience around until the movie theater issues a flood warning from all the excessive crying? I don't have a definite answer, but personally, I think it's that last one.

..moving on..

Mood: ...
Music: MUSIQ's Don't Change, Dreamsounds

...i rmmber jst now, how d simplest of ur gestures cn mke me so giddy,, i used 2 shudder in anticipation of hearing ur voice, literally speakng,, nd wen u txt me, it ws lyk nothing else mattered-at all,, my friends even used 2 tease me bout it,, dey told me dey cn alwys tell wen u snd me a txt mssge, since my face automatically lights up wen i see ur nme appear on d screen,, i cn vaguely rmmber d kilig feeling, bt i knw dat it felt lyk my insides were turning 2 mush, my muscles were dissolving in electricity, nd butterflies were hammering against my throat,, i know, dey don't sound 2 good in print, bt dey r, in actuality, d best feelings in d world,, i rmmbr, still quite vividly, hw d mere memory of ur laugh ws enough 2 mke me smile, nd hw d mere sound of ur voice hd bin enuf 2 brighten up d drkest of my days,, i rmmbr looking 4wrd 2 wking up evry morning, bcoz i knew it wud b anoder day 2 communicate wid u,, somehw, deep down, i knew i ws falling 4 u,, somehow, however, i tried 2 bury dem 2 d deepest recesses of my heart in d hope of vanquishing dem forever,, i rmmbr quite well how u told me, countless of times, hw mch u loved me,, u asked me once y i liked u. nd i told u, "Because you make me happy,," nd u knw wat? u rily did,, u made me happy, in a way dat i nvr thought i could evr b,, i thank u 4 dat,, maybe i'll nvr 4get u,, maybe i'll nvr live dwn d fact dat i had u-but i let u go,, was it dat, or was it dat i had you, but i did not work hard, did not fight hard enuf 2 make u stay? i dnt knw,, i don't want 2 think, nd i don't believe dat now is d tym 2 rationalize bout these things,, because d truth of the matter is, u're gone,, i cn't help but wonder, once in a while, how u're doin, i wonder if u're happy, or if some lucky creature is mking u happy,, i wonder if you still think of me, or even just rmmber dat i exist,, becoz i think of u,, evry single day, against my will, against my better judgment,, i've fooled myself long enuf 2 believe dat u're not important in my lyf, not essential 2 my existence. i'm tired of my own masquerade,, i just want 2 acknowledge d fact dat yes, u have touched my life, even if i have acknowledged dis 2 l8,, i wish u cud see me now,, i believe i cn safely say dat i'm a much better prson now dan I was b4,, i used 2 believe dat wen u lose sum1, u'll get a chnce 2 meet dem again,, i used 2 believe in second chances,, losing you has taught me dat der r no second chances in life,, wen u meet some1, nd u r given dat chance 2 change their lives, u have 2 tke hold of dat opportunity, bcoz dat is d only chance u've got,, u hav ur chance, nd dat's it.,, u hav 2 make d most out of it, nd den let go wen it's time,, people come nd go, nd you hav 2 live wid it,, i constantly hav 2 remind myself dat u've done ur part in my life,, u taught me d lesson u came 2 teach, so u hav 2 leave,, i hav 2 move on,,

g--dby-

Mood: naah, never mind
Music: Jesse Powell's You're The One I Love, Dreamsounds

...tears of blood fall from my broken heart,, I never thought we'd be apart,, When you held me, you said "Forever",, Now that you're gone, I know you meant "Never",, Saying you loved me with that look in your eyes,, Your tender touch, a soft kiss,, Two things about you I will miss,, As I sit here thinking of you,, My face is wet with tears past due,, I should have cried long ago,, But I just loved you so,, But I had only you on my mind,, A hurt so deep,, But wounds heal,, and I'll go on with my life,,

100.00 PhP - unang kabanata

Mood: pleased
Music: Usher's Simple Things, Confessions

...here's a cool article from Peyups about life at UPLB,, ^_^


"Maganda ba talaga sa LB?"

Ilang beses na yang naitatanong ng kaibigan kong produkto ng La Salle at UST. Para bang hindi niya maisip na sa UPLB masaya ang buhay. Simple. Tahimik.

Siguro hindi siya pamilyar sa pagkain ng isaw ni Ate Evie, makipa-lista sa canteen ni Ate Nimfa, o makipag-tagayan sa mga nakatira sa White House. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ikukuwento kung paano ako nabuhay ng anim na taon sa paanan ng Bundok Makiling. Subukan ko kaya...

Wala pa kaming isang buwan sa bago naming trabaho. Isang beses, habang naglalakad kami mula sa opisina papuntang EDSA at namumroblema sa budget dahil wala pa kaming sweldo, napag-usapan namin kung saan mura ang pagkain. May binanggit syang lugar sa Cubao. Dahil wala naman ako masyadong alam na lugar dito sa Maynila, nabanggit ko sa kanya ang Papu's meal1, Tatlong Siomai at rice sa halagang P16, pati na ang Batcave at Lechon Kawali.

Bigla nyang nasabi, "Bakit kayong mga taga-LB, hindi nyo maalis yan sa inyo..." Ano ba ang ibig nyang sabihin? Hindi maalis ang pag-alaala sa lahat ng bagay na tungkol sa Los Baños... Yun siguro! Nasabi ko na lang sa kanya ang mga katagang, "It grows in the heart."

Sa UPLB, pwede kang pumasok sa klase nang hindi naliligo (tulad ni Jong)... Mag-seminar kahit hindi pa nagtu-toothbrush (parang si Bong)... Lumabas ng kalsada na nang hindi nagsusuklay (si Pat 'yun!)...

Sa UPLB, pwede kang mabuhay ng 100 PhP lang ang pera mo sa loob ng isang linggo. Dito sa Manila, posible kaya yun?

Nung panahon ko sa LB, eto ang presyo ng bilihin: P6 ang Lucky Me Pancit Canton [P5 pa yun nung matutunan kong gawing staple food]. P3.25 ang pamasahe ng estudyante, pero halos lahat ng lugar dun ay pwedeng lakarin. Wag ka lang magkakaroon ng klase sa Forestry, dahil P4 talaga ang pamasahe paakyat. [inabot ko pa yung 1.50 na pamasahe nung freshman ako]. P11 ang 3 pcs siomai sa Papu's. +5 pesos rice = P16 = meal1. 4 pcs siomai + rice = P20 = meal2. P6 ang DOLE juice sa red kubo sa 1st floor ng Physci. P15 ang swimming sa Baker Hall basta may ID ka. P20-30 ang rental sa mga internet café. P5 printing/page. P16 ang isang order ng Balatong (monggo) sa Ellen's Fried Chicken. P45 ang Beef Tapa sa Sissler's at Selina's, may side dish pa yang buttered veg or mashed potatoes. P60 ang grilled Chicken with veggies sa Isabelle's. P25 ang beer sa Flatrocks Bar & Resto. wala pang P100 ang Oreo Cremaccino sa Isis Bar. under P100 din lang ang magagastos para sa Mindoro Sling na iinumin mo ng 4pm habang nagrereview para sa exam ng 7pm. Libre ang tawanan, biruan, iyakan, chismisan, group reviews; jogging sa field, papuntang IRRI o paakyat ng Jamboree; Open Training ng Shotoks, pati ang panonood ng rumble at Oblation Run;

Sa UPLB, magiging Varsity ka sa sport dahil mahal mo ang sport mo, hindi dahil sa incentives para sa mga varsity. Mapulitika ang DHK, dahil sa mga taong nasa kapangyarihan. Gagawan nila ng gagawan ng issue yung mga taong hindi nila makasundo at sumasalungat sa gusto nilang mangyari. Napapabayaan tuloy ang magagaling na manlalaro ng unibersidad. Wala kang makukuhang varsity scholarship or discount man lang sa tuition... sabagay, subsidized na naman ang matrikula ng mga iskolar ng bayan. Kung may sports and recreation org ka naman, hindi rin naman irerecognize ng DHK kasi hindi na member ng faculty ang founder ng org nyo. Ang pride mo na lang ay makasama sa listahan ng manlalaro na magdadala ng pangalan ng University of the Philippines Los Baños.

Sa UPLB, brods and sisses ang tawagan sa mga kasama sa org. Ewan ko ba sa mga taga-ibang campus (kahit UPD o UPM)... pag nakarinig ng salitang brod o sis, aakalain nilang miyembro ka ng fraternity o sorority. Pero sa UPLB, basta ka-org mo, brod o sis ang tawag. Kapatid ang turing.. para kayong isang pamilya sa loob ng samahan. May mga kuya at ate... yung mga nakakatanda sa org nung panahon na sumali ka; May batchmates... na para mong kakambal sa lahat ng pagdadaanan bago makapasok ng org; May mga amuyong... (aplikante) na nais mapasama sa org ngayong miyembro ka na; Meron din dyang sempai, kohai, bata, matanda, best friend, special friend, ka-relasyon, boyfriend, girlfriend, master, neophyte, president, vice-president, secretary, treasurer, auditor, p.r.o. at kung anu-ano pang position.

Sa UPLB, masarap sumali ng mga liga.. Yung iba, kinakarir talaga ang sportsfest. ENGmeet, CEMplangan, PalaCASan. Syempre, pinakamalaki at pinakabongga ang PalaCASan. Kahit na para talaga sa mga CAS (College of Arts and Sciences) Academic Orgs ang liga na 'to, nagpupumilit sumali rito ang mga taga ibang colleges. Sa PalaCASan, pag host org ka, sikat. Pag ikaw ang techCom head, "Campus Figure" ka. Pwede ring maging "Crush ng Bayan" kung magaling mag-basketball, mabait at kung laging naliligo. Kung Information Director ka ng isa sa pinakamagandang season ng PalaCASan, ikaw ang nag-aayos lahat ng score sheets, magko-consolidate ng data, magtatawag ng orgs para sa techCom meeting, magcocolate at magdidistribute ng results sa bawat games; At may karapatan kang murahin ang techCom head & housemates pag late nagising dahil 3am na nang natapos silang mag-WarCraft.

Sa UPLB, masarap mag-nature tripping... meron dung Molawin Creek, Flat Rocks, Mud Spring, at Peak Two. Meron ding Museum of Natural History, Botanical Garden, Semen Tree at Fertility Tree. Nandyan ang Ampitheatre, Freedom Park, at Carabao Park na walang kalabaw. May bonggang waiting shed (Thai Pavillion), kwek-kwek tower (Academic Heritage Monument), kikay tower(Veterans Memorial Tower), at phallic symbol (Carillon Tower).

Sa UPLB, masarap magpaka-atleta dahil halos lahat libre... kung may bayad man ang facilities na gagamitin, mura lang ang singil. Maraming tennis courts na pwedeng rentahan (pero hindi ko alam kung magkano ang renta dahil wala pa akong little white tennis dress na gagamiting excuse para maglalaro ng sport na ito). Pwede ka ring mag-ober-da-bakod sa pool sa baker pag gabi... kung walang tubig o brown-out sa dorm or apartment na tinutuluyan mo. May bowling alley at billiard hall sa basement ng SU Building para sa ayaw magpa-araw. * Halos lahat ng Baker boys (basketball enthusiasts) ay nagsusumiksik sa Outside Court 1 ng Baker dahil hindi sila basta-basta makakapaglaro sa covered court at dahil din sa tabingi ang ring sa OC2. * Punta ka lang ng lower grounds, ok ka na... hindi na kailangang gumastos para sa ehersisyo. Magwarm-up ka muna sa gilid ng grandstand... mag-jogging paikot sa oval; mag-soccer sa loob ng oval; mag-volleyball, tumbang preso o kaya mag-chinese garter sa gilid ng oval; * Kung mas trip mo naman sa field - upper grounds (Freedom Park), dun magandang mag-softball, baseball, or mag-kata sa damuhan... Masarap din dung tumambay lalo na pag hapon habang kumakain ng lumpia, turon, banana que na inilalako ni Parekoy. (Ito yung pampasarap sa pinasarap na usapan).

Simple lang ang buhay sa LB. Maaaring hindi kami maporma gaya ng ayos ng mga Manileño... Nakakapasok kami sa klase na halos pambahay lang ang suot... Kung mag-foodtrip kami, dun lang sa isawan sa kanto, o kaya sa Grove... Ang night life namin ay IC's Bar, Isis Cafe o Flatrocks bar & Resto kadalasang umiikot... Helipad kung trip mag-billiards... Gamesite, Area, KC's kung gustong mag-Counter Strike, Ragnarok o Warcraft... film showing sa apartment (I4) habang kumakain ng Lucky Me Pancit Canton na niluto sa rice cooker pag wala kaming pera... at madalas, tambay na nga lang sa org house pag walang magawa...

Yun ang kinasanayan ko... Yun ang mga simpleng pagkain, bagay, lugar, pangyaryari na nakapagpa-ikot ng aking mundo. Yun ang buhay na namimiss ko ngayon... Lalo pa at isang linggo pa bago ako maka-sweldo at100.00 PhP na lang ang laman ng aking bulsa.

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